I'm still so sad.....

I know death is gonna happen; we can't live forever, but since I have joined this group I have lost DairyPrincess one week before we were to meet in Minnesota. Then there was the gentleman of all gentlemen - Peter Nash (who nominated me for the Newsletter in 2009). Then the one & only Electric Frank who will always be in everyone's thoughts probably forever and my dear dear friend Billie (Blue Australia).

I (as well as many others here) had relationships with each of them, unique in every way, but I miss Frank so much because we corresponded a couple of times per week; the same with Billie - she & I got to become extremely close and I still cry when I think of her plans to come to Canada to see Jessie and I.

I guess I'm not dealing with this very well at all. I suppose it's even harder when I lost my Dad not 2 years ago and am still grieving about him, then 2 co-workers passed between Frank's and Billie's passing.

Anyone else having ongoing issues about losing a pacemaker friend??? How does one grieve for a friend you have never met face to face??? I've been to grief couselling 3 times now and it is NOT getting any better...not a bit.

Tomorrow is not promised so make sure you tell your family and friends that you love them.

Take care,
Pookie

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HI

by Moner - 2013-07-27 06:07:18

Hi Pookie,

It's certainly good to hear from you as always. I still think about Electric Frank a lot and I miss him terribly.

He was one of the first ones to respond to my worries and concerns as well as you.

I love this little club we have here, and I'm grateful for people like you who belong to ths special club.

You had a tough go these last couple of years, especially for you back in the Spring, I hope you realize how much I appreciate you here.

Take care,

Moner
>^..^<

Moner

by Pookie - 2013-07-27 06:07:45

Yeah, It's been a rough 2 years for sure; just hoping things start to swing for the better...whoever said life isn't easy sure got THAT right.

I am feeling wonderful (physically) - I still battle my Meniere's and all of my other medical issues - I am nowhere near 100% and probably never will be, but at least I can now live my life instead of just exist.

I'm getting pretty excited too about Harley63 coming all the way from Texas to spend a week with me!!!!! August 18th can't get here fast enough. Webcamming and Skyping is good, but actually getting to meet my best pacer friend FACE TO FACE is going to beyond exciting. 7 years we have been corresponding. SEVEN.

I don't think I'll be able to let her get back on that airplane once she gets here. We have booked a cottage right on the ocean and our plans are to stuff our faces with as much seafood as we can...LOL

For those of you who have connected with another member and talk about meeting some day - don't wait, do it as soon as you can, cuz you never know what tomorrow is gonna bring.

Life is way too short - enjoy every minute that you possibly can.

Thanks Moner,

Pookie
xo

you are a very giving and special person

by jessie - 2013-07-29 01:07:53

i read all of your post and had no idea you have lost so many close to you. i dont know if you are staying where you are or coming home but a lot of the churches now have grief counselling. you are if you dont already know a very kind and caring person.please know that i think of you a lot and i really wonder to-night how you could endure all of that. it is a lot for any one person to suffer. reading this i say and i thought i had troubles.please take care of yourself and yes i would think you could benefit from grief counselling. jessie oo

Re Frank

by Creaky - 2013-08-01 11:08:14

Pookie
So very sorry to hear all the grief you've been dealing with. I haven't been on the site much lately so didn't know Frank had passed until tonight. He was helpful to me so many times and was a fountain of imformation.
If it's not too painful, can you pm me anything about his passing.
I've had ventricular lead fracture for the second time in three years. Just 7 weeks out now from lead extraction and new leads rerouted. I worry about the folks who are cavalier about the exercises they are doing and that they recommend.
Harry

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