Dropping in to say hi.

About a month ago i wrote on here talking about my plight with my family. It has been an up hill battle. As of june my medtronic pacer (dual) said i had 10 months. My doc looked at me and said make that six. Because this model has been way off in the past. so now its dec. Six months is almost here. No insurance so of course the doc stop calling. Plus it didnt help that i dont want a pacer cange anyway. Took me 9 years to get use to the thing. Between the loud amps and bases in cars...ooo how that would vibrate my pacer against my rib. On of course complaing to the docs was like pulling teeth from a very hungary shark. To moving wrong and the pacer gets stuck under my rib.

Having all my heart conditions and cardic cirrohiss has made me realize.....regardless if you are healthy or not. You need to stop and just enjoy your life. I have stopped my meds (well finished them off), stopped looking at the calendar and started taking in each day i am able to open my eyes. Docs arent stressing me out anymore and i have choosen that either my family understands or they dont...not my problem anymore. i have made all my final papers and they are ready.

I am sure some of you are like..but you can live without a pacer...I cant. I am pm dependant. I will drop on reserve and the my heart will slow down to a point where i will feel sleepy...and wake in the arms my Charlie snd gloified in gods light. a natural death for me. I have come to despise pacemakers...another form of life support.. Not for me anymore.

I will keep my new friends up to date... God bless everyone!

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strange to say how "we" as humans...

by ladywhisper - 2012-11-27 09:11:03

can we have lucky that we have a choice nowadays. I have been called a fool. But i use1800's logic behind it. Were would many of us be if it was still the 1800's? I often ponder on that. I can go on and on about that.

Before someone comments and say...how dare I talk about some that so many have choosen so they can live...a APm is great for many and then it is bad idea for a few. Great for some in the begining and then after a while...bad later. Erverything must come in to play when making any choice in your life. From college, marriage, house, job, retirement, and then death. Many humans nowadays really get to be a part of very life changing expierence now. From begining to end....that is a gift.

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In fact after the final "tweaks" of my pacemaker programming at the one year check up it is working so well that I forget I have it.