Anxiety issues.

• by Africanelephant
• 2013-01-11 12:01:09
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Ive had my ICD for two years now, went into cardiac arrest back in nov. of '10 , months later diagnosed with arvdi am 16 now, and in august '11 i experienced my first shock, wake/ and passed out, and had recieved some more, and that summer i went 4 nights without sleep. I finally was admitted back into the hospital where i spent another month of my life. and released early october, and throughout a few month span had horrible anxiety issues, couldnt sleep. though it got better, im not sure if me getting a girlfriend got my focus off or what.

Now in 2012 back in october i recieved another shock , passed out this time , first one in a year. And anxiety came back, i was afraid to walk at normal speed if at all, i just have been feeling down, then in december i got sick, and wasnt absorbing my meds from it, and recieved 3 shocks all awake. and its just traumatizing for me, its so hard to deal with it. and anxiety just gotten worse, before i dealt with it, i was able to overcome it, now i just feel like i cant, and im just losing all motivation for everything like i just dont want to move dont want to go to school, cause all i feel is anxiety during school and thats no fun. and this anxiety makes me feel loss of breath, and just like ( im not sure how you all feel before recieving a shock) but i lose breath for about 8 seconds or so, light headed, then either get a shock or pass out, and what i feeel during the day sometimes is like a very short lost of breath kind of, and my doctor says its just a skipped beat, but it just so nerve wrackig and scares me, i just the main deal is im just scared of an awake shock, though my doctor had set my defib to go off at higher point now, im still nervous, and anxiety and this depression is controlling me and i dont know if i can keep this up.