Good morning everyone

Another sleepless night. Very bad Tstorms here that woke me.

Anyway, still feeling real bad as if something is going on. Total wiped out. Getting to the point of just throwing the towel in.
This heart failure is eating my body from within and I'm getting weaker by the day.

I have a doctors appointment with my transplant team next Wensday. Just hope to make it. The last couple weeks has been very ruff. I lost another 8 lbs in the last week. Being 6' and weighting in at 152 is not good. I do eat, but not much anymore.

Sorry all, guess I just need to vent some. The walls are starting to close in on me.

Take care and God Bless,
Paul

12 Comments

Paul

by Grateful Heart - 2013-04-14 01:04:08

Prayers for you and your family. I pray your transplant team has some good news for you.

God Bless,
Grateful Heart

Hey Paul

by TalkinCardio - 2013-04-14 04:04:00

Is your transplant team still trying to talk you into getting the LVAD or is that not an option anymore? It sounds like the meds going into your picc line are not helping any longer. You must continue to fight. You have a grandchild on the way that you want to get to know. I'm sure your doctors will have other things to try to get your heart failure under control until you recieve your new heart. There are a lot of us praying for you!

Cathy

good evening, Paul

by Hope - 2013-04-14 07:04:03

Hope today has been better for you. It is nice you have family close. We have good sons, but far away. I tried to join everyone this morning replying to your post, but my post and comment efforts have failed on site for days. Anyway, just want you to know you are still n my thoughts and prayers. Hopeful Heart

hi paul

by jessie - 2013-04-14 07:04:06

love that name. paul. my first baby that was my little brother was named paul. i was eight when he was born so i had four brothers and he was my baby.i thought that was so cool to have a little baby to care for. i am so sorry you feel so bad. you are in my prayers. jessie

Thanks y'all

by fishfighter - 2013-04-14 07:04:24

I try to stay positive, but the body and mine start playing tricks on you. I still don't show or tell my loving wife how bad things are getting. I'm starting to get to the point of not thinking right all the time. Things are starting to slip. This will be brought up at my next appointment. I will have to have a talk with my daughter soon on what is going on. She is a DMV. I'm sure she could give me some answers. She will be driving me to New Orleans for my next appointment and knows the right questions to ask.
Thanks, Paul

paul

by Luq - 2013-04-14 07:04:41

You r in my prayers and thoughts..I have a feeling things will work out right for you. God is always with us.
With lov
Luq

thinking of you

by annie21 - 2013-04-14 07:04:48

Hi,
sending a big hug. God bless
avril x

Hang in there Paul!

by Many Blessings - 2013-04-14 10:04:47

I can't even imagine what you're going through Paul, but please try to hang in there. Sometimes, you're closer than you think to feeling even "just a little bit" better. That little bit better might be all you need to give you hope to continue your fight. You have a LOT of people out here thinking and praying for you!

Prayers

by ohiolaura - 2013-04-14 11:04:31

I will add you to my nightly prayers Paul,I made a deal with God when I was in the hospital scared that my life was going to take a tragic turn,that I would be thankful everyday for what He has given me.I have stuck to it,everynight,I say Thank you for the day,that I feel good,and also Thank you for Him keeping others here,I will include you now.
I also added in my deal to be a better person,and be more understanding,not mean spirited,and add to the goodness of the world.
I have a husband of 25 years,parents,brother,other family,and especially 2 daughters that I am here for.
For all this,I plan on being around a long time,and I know God has a plan,for all of us.
I'll add you tonight,God Bless You Paul.
Laura

Fish.............................

by Tattoo Man - 2013-04-15 04:04:16


...................................Just think,...someone thousands of miles away from you is alongside you.

I ,and others know nothing about you..

You appear to be born in 1870.

Is it ,maybe time for Fishfighter to tell PMC about the real 'Fish'....?

Is it time for 'Fish' to talk to Mrs Fish..?

There is MASSIVE concern for you.

This may, and TM does this,..prod some sensitivities ?.

Fishfighter,..you are in that bosom that is PMC.

Get back....as you choose.

You will always be safe.

TM

Paul..

by TalkinCardio - 2013-04-15 07:04:01

I'm glad your family is going with you Wednesday. They do need to know what is going on. TM, you are right. Mrs. Fish needs to know.

P.S., Thanks for the info in your private message.

Cathy

Thanks all

by fishfighter - 2013-04-15 12:04:13

Woke up feeling a little better today. Still under the weather, but I'm able to walk some. I'm just not going to push it today. I'm already getting tired somewhat and it's not even 11am.

Come Wednesday, My family will be going with me to my doctors appointment. They know something is up, even though I try to hide it.

Thanks again all and God Bless,
Paul

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