Losing my baby boy

My last post was on September, celebrating the news of my first pregnancy. Today I cry with complete emptiness, sorrow, rage, because I lost him. There are no words on any alphabet to describe what I'm feeling. We love you, baby Dylan, our little angel.

11 Comments

mereiriz..................

by Tattoo Man - 2013-01-01 02:01:21


.....................please accept my condolences. All that I can offer, all these thousands of miles away, here in the UK,..are my very deepest feelings. Never feel alone with PM Club.

So sad...

Tattoo Man

So very sorry

by jane32 - 2013-01-01 03:01:46

to hear of the loss of your little boy. It is so devastating, I hope you have lots of support and love surrounding you.

Kind regards
Jane

So very sorry

by Grateful Heart - 2013-01-01 07:01:16

I am so sorry for your loss. I understand. Right now your arms are empty. Your heart is breaking.

No words anyone can say will help. You just have to grieve.

The best advice I can give you is cry when you need to. Feel the sadness and grief. It is the human emotion no one likes to talk about. It will take some time.

Your husband is hurting too. He is trying not to show it because he is worried about you but it is his loss too. So lean on each other.

I remember doing the dishes and for what seemed to be no reason, just busting out sobbing tears even 3 or 4 months later. Just go with it and know it is a natural process.

Your body will still have many hormones flaring at that point, not fair I know, but they are still there, you just have to deal with it and wish them away.

The doctor told us at the time (22 years ago), to wait 3 months before trying to conceive again. We did and 1 year and 1 week later, our 3rd son was born.

It’s funny how you remember the good dates and the bad dates in your life.

If you wish to private message me, please feel free to do so. I can’t make your pain go away, but I would be glad to talk to you if you need.

I am truly sorry for your loss,

Grateful Heart

You are loved

by Mrs.Fielden - 2013-01-01 07:01:53

So extremely sorry. I know that so many people are sharing your painas I did reading your story. God Bless you and may you have strength and happiness again soon. Love from a stranger

I'm so sorry

by admin - 2013-01-01 08:01:34

You are in our thoughts and prayers. God bless.

I am so sorry

by janetinak - 2013-01-01 11:01:33

this is a terrible loss. I hope you can get the help from your family & friends you need. And please come to us when ever you need us.

Janet

So sorry

by Shepheart - 2013-01-01 12:01:22

May your loved ones around you shed their love and grace upon you. We are thinking of you now.

felt the sorrow

by jeanlancour - 2013-01-02 02:01:42

I could feel your sorrow for the loss of your son. He will always be with you. Not any easier when your arms are empty. You and Dylan's Father need time to come to terms with the loss of Dylan. It's not easy but we do it, just remember we never forget. Our prayers are with you.

Heart wrenching for yours ...

by CynSluys - 2013-01-03 03:01:31

Your loss is felt deeply, by you and those around you. Allow yourself to feel this and in time numbness will set in and life will go on. Your heart will never be the same, as you know, but enriched by knowing Dylan as you did. Keep that with you. Know that you are thought of every day.

Thanks everyone

by mereiriz - 2013-01-03 04:01:01

I can't thank each and everyone of you enough for your kind words. I've been through a lot in my life but nothing can compare to this pain. I'm living one day at a time and hoping for better things for this new year. God bless you all!

Meredith

God is Great

by Um.Laila - 2013-01-05 03:01:34

Dear mereiriz , I'm so sorry to hear about the loss of you're beloved son Dylan . And as a mother I truly understand your pain. There is no love like a mother's love to her child.

Never feel ashamed of the tears you shed , tears heal alot of pain .

Always remember that God is great and he will never leave you alone. And also remember that all what you're going through is a test from God almighty , and your given that test because he wants you to get closer to him by prayers and good deeds. Just continue praying and continue your good deeds , they help alot. God is great and kind and so he'll never forget you and he'll never leave you alone. Be sure that you will be rewarded for your patience.

I am positive that Dylan is in a better place right now. Beleive me God wanted the best for him. If he was to be alive , maybe he would have suffered.

One last thing : Everything starts small and grows bigger by time ... except pain , it starts big and becomes smaller by time. We are here to support each other , so please get intouch with us whenever you feel like bursting out and talking to someone.

Lots of love xxx

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