I Made it!

I am so excited today! I actually completed a week of work for the first time since August 2007. It was half days, of course, I am easing back into it. During my time off, many days I didn't have strength to even lift my head and started to think my life is over at 36! I couldn't see myself back at work, I could hardly get up to shower, eat or even watch TV. All I can say is God is Good! I know I am not 100% but I am encouraged by the progress. I am still suffering with anxiety because my defib will be turned back on April 28 but I will have to learn to appreciate it rather than fear it. I must get over my silly fears of embarassment from the reaction and just be grateful for it's life saving shock. I am still a work in progress, taking this thing one day at a time. Today was a good day!

4 Comments

You Go for It!

by allanrogers - 2008-04-19 04:04:24

Focusing on the positive is hard sometimes but it is the best way.

I wish you strength to stength

Kind Regards

Allan

hee hee

by pacergirl - 2008-04-19 09:04:17

Isn't life GRAND! :-)

You are a work in progress and a FINE one at that! Keep working toward you goals, You are on the right track. :) Taking it one day at a time.... the only way to go!

Take care, keep us posted on your progress~

Pacergirl

Today was a good day!

by Swedeheart - 2008-04-19 12:04:52

me&mybigheart,

How nice... today was a good day for you! It is great to look back and see you have made progress. We all benefit from each other's successes!

Sometimes I think is it one day at a time... but then I remember 8 weeks ago, it was one hour at a time... I feel a bit better as well. This whole Pacemaker experience hasn't lessened my impatience... but I have certainly learned more about myself, and the goodness of so many other folks ~ like the good people on this forum.

Of course you will have anxiety, but once you identify what it is, that helps a tiny bit. I know, I am an anxiety expert... I practice my anxiety way too often! There are no silly fears, but as we learn to face them they often don't seem quite as bad as last time.

Thank you for posting about your good day. It is a great sign of hope... remember at the end of each day to remember the good things about it and the great people that touch your life. It is what it is all about!

Swedeheart

Great

by gentlben4u - 2008-04-21 03:04:36

I'm glad you are able to work again! I started working 10 days after my implant. I wanted to take time off but I was on unemployment, and needed to make money. The first couple of weeks I felt tired and faint all the time. But after a while I got my strength back. I even mowed the lawn for the first time today! Hang in there, and good luck.

Ben.

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