Trying to come to terms with it
Had my first pacemaker fitted on 4th February. Had palpitations for a while and my GP carried out a 24hour ECG a few weeks ago. It was found that I had a secondary heart block (heart missing beats and beating much too slowly), so I was referred to a cardiologist and a dual chamber pacemaker was fitted three days later!
I am very sore and swollen above my left breast - this could be because they had to fit the pacemaker twice as after they had finished they found the 'wires were crossed' so they had to start again. Sleeping is difficult because I am very uncomfortable and I wake when I move.
Also I was told I will feel much better but I feel much worse. I was not short of breath before the op but now I am. I feel so tired by early evening that I just want to fall into bed - maybe this is because I am not sleeping very well and have had to get back to work.
Am I being too impatient? I know it is only 12 days! Why do I hate this intrusion so much even though I understand that my life would have been in danger without it?
The swelling on top of the pacemaker is very large but the bruising is going. At the moment I can't imagine the swelling going down and my left breast pulls on the area all the time - presumably men don't have that problem.
It is hard to talk to the family about how I feel and well-meaning friends keep telling me how they know someone whose life has been transformed since they had their pacemaker fitted - playing sports, cycling, trekking, going to the moon! I felt fairly well before and now I feel like an invalid with a strange piece of metal stuck in my chest!
Sorry this is so long but I know people who read this will understand and might be able to reassure me.