Feeling like I need a boost

• by Pumph
• 2018-12-04 10:25:25
• Coping
• 1230 views
• 2 comments

Hi there,

I’ve just discovered this site so hello everybody and hope you are all doing well !

I have had a pacemaker since the age of 12 and I am now 37 ! Looking back I think I was unfazed by the news that I had to have a pacemaker fitted and lived a very normal life. Last year however I suffered a heart attack completely out of the blue. This was caused by two blood clots in one of the main arteries entering my heart. I was hospitalised twice after this because I needed to have my heart shocked out of atrial fibrillation Since then I have had an ablation and had my single lead pacemaker replaced with a dual chamber one. 

I think now I’m at the stage where I feel better than I did with my single lead pacemaker but I do struggle with coming to terms with the uncertainty of everything ! I can also get quite obsessed with taking my pulse and I feel like I get the odd funny beat. Recently I had a very fast heartbeat which turned into a very irregular rythm while sitting at my desk at work! This came back to normal very quickly and I’m hoping my pacemaker regulated things! I saw my consultant yesterday and had a pacing check and echo and an exercise test. I will see what he says. I think maybe right now I am coping well with everything that’s happened and I’m never going to be perfect. I think if I get a funny beat I just need to think my pacemaker is working fine and just try and ignore it. 

Does anybody have any thoughts on coping with uncertainty and getting on with their lives as best they can ?

Thanks for reading,

Katie