Nicholas

• by Christmmpace
• 2008-02-15 11:02:32
• Coping
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This is an old posting about my son, Nicholas. This month is his birthday ( Feb. 20 ). Happy Birthday to my wonderful son. Daddy loves you from the bottom of my two wires in my heart.

In the first year of having my pacemaker implanted, I was suffering emotionally and physically. I was not use to my heart racing at night. I was having panic attack and thinking my heart was going to stop. Other times, I would think it was going to explode because of the rapid heart beat. One night, I was worrying myself sick. I was feeling very bad and my heart was pumping so fast, I felt as though it was going to come out of my chest. I was afraid and called a family member to take me to the hospital. I was walking up and down the hallway, and my children were there with me. They were very upset and concern. I tried to keep my cool, so I wouldn't scare them, but children can see and feel our pain. As I was waiting, my son (Nicholas) said something to me that would give me the strength to hang on to my life. He said, "Daddy, I wish I had a pacemaker just like you, so when you die, I will die to, and then we could both go to heaven at the same time". I never thought the most powerful words I've ever heard would come from a child. I love you Nicholas, and, thank you for your words of love and compassion. I will be daddy on earth and your father forever in heaven.

Matthew 18: 1-4
At that time the disciples came to Jesus, saying, “Who is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven?” And calling to him a child, he puts him in the midst of them and said, “Truly I say to you, unless you turn and become like children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.


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