Weird Poetry...

In the waiting room
Waiting to be called....
Feeling nervous. My heart racing inside me
I want to run away I can still escape
They will burn my heart
I want to run but my body is frozen
Inside the white room
Bright lights above me
Warm patches in my chest and back
I take a deep breath in
Thats all that i remember Except...
Im in a big fog
My parents in the white room
Im still laying down
The doctor comes close
"There was a complication"
"We had to put a pacemaker in you"
My eyes open up big- I cant speak
Its all I can do
Feels like a dream- Is this a nightmare?
Tears run down my cheeks
Alone in the ICU
"God please, I dont want this pacemaker"
I plead
"It needs to be done"
I know
I dont want to accept it
What is this metal inside me?
Am I part robot now?
Emotional pain-Worst than the wound pain
Years pass by so fast
I've learned to accept
Its part of me now
Although at times I worry
It sustains my heart
What if it fails?
Need to trust in God
There are others like me
It feels so good to help
New pacers like me- Like I once was
Going through the pain
Feelins so alone
I can give them words of comfort
For me others have done
You too will learn to accept it
Although it takes time
You are not alone

by; brokenheart

7 Comments

niCcEe poem

by craig c - 2009-09-01 04:09:37

YEAA THATS WHAT THE SUMB DOCTOR DID TO ME DOING AN EP STUDY AND THAN AN ABLATION HE BURNT ME IN THE WRONG SPOT THATS WHY I GOT A PACER...IM PISSED OFF...HE RUINED MY LIFE THE IDIOTTT

dont be mad

by brokenheart - 2009-09-01 05:09:46

Hey its ok. im sure there are lots of people here that have gone thru some of the same things. What we have to do is not dwell so much in the past and what it has caused us but move forward and find a way to feel better.

wonderful poem

by jessie - 2009-09-01 07:09:28

what talent you have. you say it just like it is. it will help people to heal. thank you. jessie

From the heart!

by sputnick - 2009-09-02 04:09:36

You write soooo beautifully, you words will give hope to others who are feeling like you once did.
with love, your good friend Jan!

Poem of Hope

by donb - 2009-09-02 11:09:28

Great poem, you put real feelings in this poem which will touch everyone. Thank You! DonB

thank you

by brokenheart - 2009-09-03 04:09:19

Awww...thank you all for your commetns..You make me smile. Im glad you liked it. Love and kisses to all and God bless.

Inspirational

by Shirley - 2009-09-03 06:09:33

Really hits a cord......been there, done that.
You put it all so well. Yes, we need to look to the future and yes, this site is a great help.

Well done. Thanks for sharing.

shirley

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