all new reference points

• by Laura P
• 2009-11-11 04:11:17
• Surgery & Recovery
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• 2 comments

Hi Everyone,

This my first contact I have had since my surgury 2wks ago. I talked to family and friends about how I feel totally different. I feel like II finally and maybe for the first time. Looking in hindsight I may have started to have this as a teen but since it wasn't constant and only slightly a problem (ya only slightly< hmmph)I wasn't even checked for it. My friends laughed at me for walking as if drunk and having to look down at my feet to walk. For about a decade I thought it was just me or that I was that way due to another illness or because I was overweight. I and the dr's always blamed my feeling faint, lightheaded and after running around the track 2x felt like I going to die and I had to laydown on the ground beside the track just in the nick of time before I fainted.I have gotten forgetful and in the past 6 months it seemed it was getting worse by the days. I couldn't walk straight while holding my head up looking straight ahead without getting very dizzy and almost fainting. I was told don't get stand up or turn around so fast, next they said it was vertigo. I was always telling my husband to turn up the ac then 2 years ago I changed 180 degrees. Now I can't even handle temps below 72 and the hotter the better, last sumer it got up to almost 100 I wasn't sweating and I found it very comfortable. My bus stop is only 10 min walk, in the past 2 months it has been almost impossible to do walk it. I started to isolate (I do't have car and hubby works cray hours) until I find a friend to take me anywhere just to gat out of it just for even a short time.
But I think I am preaching to the choir! How it happened was very quickly and unexpected. I dont remember everything but I guess I banged my head and when my husband dragged to a chair because all I wanted to do was sleep off i went.4 days later was the surger. I really apologize for such a long post.
I do have much more energy but need to take a break about every 2-3 hours to rest. I am like a kid I don't want to go to bed why waste this energy by sleeping? My focused energy came in spurts usually lasting 1x every once in a blue moon consistantly. Now it seems on even keel but I haven't learned to pace myself yet. All my beliefs and cues from my body are new different and I feel like a clean slate starting from scratch out in the middle of no where - untill I found this site! I hope to here from someone who not only can relate but informs, shares, and encorages me thru till I am able to pass this on back to someone I might help. Thanks I could write a whole chaper many feelings, beliefs, questions, and expectations. Looking forward to reading any feedback. Bye