Seven Weeks Out

I'm seven weeks out today and I feel better than when I made my first posting. I attribute that to the wonderful support I've gotten from the people on this website. My pm check was good. This was my 3rd interrogation (10days out, ER and a couple of days ago) all have been good. My anxiety is doing better and I am trying to frame the "what if" thoughts to positive thoughts. I have good days and I have bad days. All it takes is one incident of shortness of breath or lightheadedness to ruin the day. I'll be going along doing great and all of a sudden I'll feel short of breath, is this normal? It lasts a few seconds and occurs a couple of times within 15-20 minutes. I haven't tried brisk walks (fear) but I do walk at a normal pace. I find that if I have long work days, I feel very tired. I guess I need to start working on the walking more so that I won't slow my family down at Sea World in July (an anxiety thought). Depression comes and goes (good days and bad days). I realize that we all heal differently (physically and mentally), but when will I be my old self again?

3 Comments

There are some advantages

by cherrypie - 2009-06-12 04:06:51

Hi. I think we all understand the depression that comes with our hearts failing us. The advantage to this, I think (at least from my experience) is that we learn to appreciate each day, each minute much more - but only if we adjust our thinking. When negative thoughts come along, I have learned to immediately turn my attention to something I love - then I get happy and appreciate being alive! I have built a library in my mind to go to of things and memories that I love. I even have two airplanes that exist only in my mind that I take out regularly - one at night and one in the daytime. I am the pilot and can go anywhere I want and see all the beautiful things. I fly over fields of blooming lavender or sunflowers, etc. I fly over the coastal waters. I really enjoy my trips to Hawaii and fly over palm trees swaying in the breeze and the enjoy the hum of the engine. Anyway it all brings back to my mind how wonderful this earth is and our life. I hope this is of some help. I think if we enjoy every minute of our life we can probably improve our health. Hope this makes sense to you. My heart wishes you well.
Leslie

I know it's hard

by nat36 - 2009-06-12 05:06:46

I am six weeks out from pm implant and feel like you do. Some days I am so depressed and other days I try to not think about it. When I get tired easy or have a rough day physically, it makes me depressed and frustrated. I just want to wake up and feel good! I want to have energy for the things I need to do. I feel like I am getting better but it is slower than I thought it would be. We just have to try to keep the negative thoughts out, right??
Good luck!

I understand totally

by detter - 2009-06-13 10:06:46

I have had my pm for about ten weeks and have the same feelings you do. I get worried that something else is wrong when I have shortness of breath and start researching all kinds of things. Just try to take it one day at a time; I know it is hard to do that but people on this site are very good at lifting your spirits when you are down. Hang in there!

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