Accepting Your Heart Condition
I had a 3rd-degree complete heart block on February 8, 2021, with two stents and a dual-chamber heart pacer, implanted. It is now 6-months on and I have had some issues with pacer pocket infection and my pacer removed pocket clean and dead tissue remove and my dual chamber pacer reinstalled in the same pocket. Since the infection, my pacer tends to move in the pocket and gets hung up on my chest muscle that tends to hurt but it will pop back out. Doc says it will heal around the pacer and prevent it from moving in the next few months.
Putting aside the pacer implant and the second surgery for the infection all the printouts say I am normal for a 67-year old guy that is very fit that walks every morning for an hour and rides a bicycle a lot. The issue I have is mental and lack of confidence now. I tend to get light-headed when I stand up after working on a laptop. Being light-headed happens during yard work a few times and I had to sit down and let it pass. Getting light-headed doesn’t do much for the confidence level.
The mental game is in my head now knowing I will never have my own heartbeat back as I am 100% paced at 60 bpm now. The electrical side of the heart is dead but the pumping muscle side works very well with no muscle damage when I had the heart attack as I died in the ER and they quickly beat my chest and shocked me back to life six times.
The question is how does everyone deal with the mental part of the heart game we are now in? I went from full Alpha male to I can’t do that anymore. Flying is over scuba diving, windsurfing, and all of my fun sports except my mountain bike riding. No more downhill racing. It’s been a big blow to the ego being sidelined how do you all deal with this part of the mental aspect?