I had my ICD put in on June 8th, and was feeling remarkably good. Before the implantation I was feeling pretty hopeless and emotionally dead, I just couldn't cope. Following the surgery I was a little sore but sort of went back into "normal" mode emotionally. In fact, I stopped thinking about the big issues and was just relieved the surgery went so smoothly. Friday night while out with friends, I got shocked once. Not only was I completely surprised by it, I was also very embarassed to be with so many people and become instantly helpless. Since then, I have gone back to feelings of hopelessness, anger, sadness, and a new one- constant fear. The idea that I could have many more shocks ahead of me (I am only 23) is nearly paralyzing every minute of the day. I am just so tired of fighting, and this device that will save me is also scaring the hell out of me. Any words of wisdom from anyone? I'll take all the help I can get.
You know you're wired when...
You can finally prove that you have a heart.
I had a pacemaker when I was 11. I never once thought I wasn't a 'normal kid' nor was I ever treated differently because of it. I could do everything all my friends were doing; I just happened to have a battery attached to my heart to help it work.