36 years old, LBBB, scheduled for CRT-D, SCARED
I am 36 years old, male, dont smoke, drink, or do drugs. As far as I have known I was always relatively healthy. 6 kids and married for 13 years. 2 years ago I went in to get my gallbladder removed and the staff went into a panic when they found the LBBB. Since then I've had echos (ejection fraction 35%) and heart cath.. no one can figure out why I have LBBB.. 18 months later my ejection fraction still hadn't gone up and medicine wasnt helping, in fact made me have symptoms when I dont have any symptoms without medicine. So they recommended a crt-d. The surgery was postponed due to covid 19. Then they called last week to do it and i backed out. I asked for another echo to see where my heart it. I got the results today and it shows 25%. It has gotten worse. I feel palpitations often now and other weird feelings in my chest that are startling. They have me scheduled for the procedure in June. I am scared. I feel like I'm just giving up by getting it done. Maybe I am in denial and hopeful someone will call and say hey we figured it out you are going to be fine. I am scared about my life span and being there for my kids. I'm scared it isnt going to work. Especially when they dont even know why or what is causing the LBBB. At one point they mentioned it could be cardiomyopathy. Is anyone out there with my conditions? How long have you had it? How is your life since? How long can we expect to live? I hide my stress well but have panic attacks nightly about dying now. I don't want to die. Especially this young. Please help.