25, nervous, & 2 weeks away from surgery..
Hello all! This is my first post here so bare with me.. I'm struggling with accepting the fact that I'll be getting a pacemaker at only 25 years old. I have congenital heart disease.. more specifically born with an atrial septal defect which was surgically corrected via open heart surgery when I was 1 1/2 years old. Ever since then I've been dealing with symptoms resulting from bradycardia even when I do something simple such as walking.
I was so young when I had my first surgery but now that I'm an adult that's fully aware of everything.. I've been crying and doing my best to cope. But it's hard. I trust that the surgery will go well. However it's hitting me that this is something that I'll be dealing with for the rest of my life. I've been supressing emotionally just how my heart has been taking a toll on my life. And with this surgery coming up.. I can't hide from it anymore.
If anyone can give me some insight on how their pacemaker has affected their day to day life positively.. I would like to hear it. Don't get me wrong though.. I'm grateful for this opportunity and excited to have less limitations. It's just one of those nights where I'm overthinking everything. Bless you if you read all of this.