Scared as **** and I don’t believe
EDIT by a Moderator: There's a time & place for "Soldier talk," and this isn't it. I've gone through & cleaned it up a bit. This is an importrant subject & needs to be addressed. All of you guys know better, so keep it clean!
Donr - Retired Soldier for 32 years after 28 plus years activ e duty.
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what am I doing here?
i am 31 years old and I have spent most of my life in the army. My duty as a soldier included diving, climbing and jumping from 24k feet with oxygen. I have lived a pretty active life so far. Always been healthy, never on medications nor had any sort of problems. Baseline bradycardic due to working out daily. I have run ultra trails in the alps, competed in weightlifting, CrossFit.. name it.
i took a year off it to pursue other goals.
In the last couple of days I have been feeling a little funny and extra tired. My pulse lower than usual and struggling to get up.
this morning I decided to go to the ER and now I am sitting in the ICU in the low thirties and they are talking about putting a pacemaker in me.
no more army, no more skydiving, no more being an athlete.
i still don't believe this is real and I honestly have a feeling they are just too rushed in treating a symptom rather addressing the actual cause. I don't accept that the end of my life as I have known is explained with "these thing just happen". **********.
I'm gonna sign a refusal of care and walk around with my low heartbeat until somebody can tell me what's going on.
am in pure denial or there is a reasonable base for what I m saying?